My "SISTER" Sara!!

Sara and I have known each other for nearly 25 years and have been best friends for about a week less than that. We have had our ups and downs through the years but I can't imagine a universe without her in it. Sara is witty, amusing, free spirited and generally wonderful. To know her is to love her...and I do.
The following is from an online conversation (used here with her permission) we had today about her adventures in the snow...yesterday...with her 17 year old son Josh. I didn't really speak much...I was laughing too much to type.

SARA:
Had to go on another rescue run yesterday to save Josh out on the trails...


ME:
stuck?


SARA:

no the track on his sled broke in half...

so I went out to rescue him with my sled...

made it to the power lines...

got stuck...

got off my sled and sunk in about 4 ft of snow...

stayed there for a little while as I am short and it was VERY hard to get out...

couldn't get the sled out by myself...

was not sure how far into the woods Josh was...

yelled but he couldn't hear me...

so I began to crawl on my hands and knees to the woods across the power lines...

arms sunk and did a few face plants in the snow...

decided to lay there for a little while and wonder why I didn't take a cell phone with me or a pair of snowshoes...

called myself a dumb ass and had a good laugh...

talked to God a bit...

decided to army crawl on my belly to distribute my weight evenly across the snow...

felt like a sea lion...

started to make some progress!

about 30 min later made it to the woods...

whole trip about 100 yards...

started to walk in the woods!

learned I could easily walk though 20 inches of snow compared to 4 feet!

Kept yelling "Josh, don't worry, Mommy is coming!" over and over...

went around a corner...

no Josh...

kept walking...

call Josh again...

went around another corner...

still no Josh...

stopped and thought...

boy, the woods are very pretty today :)

couldn't breathe...

caught my breath.

went around another corner...

saw Josh way way up ahead!

yeah!!!

walked to his sled...

so

we stood there for a moment...

I couldn't talk very well...

out of shape maybe?

naw!

decided to walk back to my sled to get it unstuck...

take all that I said before and reverse it!

all of it!!

yes I crawled again!

got back to my sled...

30 min later...

lifted

pulled

lifted

pulled

got it unstuck!

got it stuck :(

lifted

pulled

made a path though the snow...

both of us...

for the snowmobile to go though...

more crawling...

had a bit of trouble keeping my boots on...

they wanted to stay in the snow!

crawled back...

lifted

pulled

and got it unstuck! :)

made it to the woods...

Yeah!!

began calling around for people to help us...

called Jordan...

called my mommy...

they called people...

their people called people...

the guy at the snowmobile club...

at the end of the power lines was out with the groomer...

Love that guy!!!

while we waited for the people to do their thing we drove my snowmobile around so that I could get it back home...

Superhero Josh took the snowmobile and jumped a HUGE snow bank...

got some air!!

scared the shit out of him!! :)

I thought it was pretty cool until I had to climb up the damn bank!

the phone rang and the new love in my life, the groomer guy, said he was coming to save us!!!

waited 15 min...

he came and took Josh back to his sled and pulled his sled out and all the way back to Swain Hill...

We then left it by the side of the road and drove back to the house for hot cocoa!!

total time 3 hours!!!

very tired legs...

did not use my elliptical last night!!!

The End

After regaining my composure, I got Sara's permission to use her story...told her she was awesome..."Super Mommy!!". Then "Super Mommy" and I said goodbye so she could go make dinner for her husband and 3 equally beautiful and intelligent children (my Goddaughter being the youngest one).

Not everyone is going to understand why I found this story so amusing...and that's okay. You would have had to have been there...through the happiness...through the HELL...and you weren't! That privilege has been ours! I am thankful...very thankful for the time I've shared with my "sister".

AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

Don't mind me...I'm in what I would call "a mood" tonight! As you can probably tell...its not a good mood! I just wonder sometimes, the purpose of some men?! Is it just to infuriate, annoy, generally piss off? What is the purpose? Okay, some men are not like that, I'll grant you. But...my ex IS like that (probably why he's my ex, right?)! Its been long enough now that he really should be moving on and finding something new to amuse himself with, right? He has a girlfriend...can't he be a jackass to her now? I mean, I put my time in...I've suffered with his BS long enough. Can't it be her turn now? Anyone's turn really...except for mine! I have children with him and love them more than life itself! They can't help who the sperm donor was...no, I don't talk to them like this...I am better than that. They love their father and should love him...but to me, personally, he is an a**hole and a waste of quality air space. :) Sorry for venting...its just been one of those days.

Anyway, I want to pose a question to anyone who feels they want to answer. When you are no longer married to someone...and they are the co parent to your children...and they are the one that your children live with 85% of the time (me...they live with me)....wouldn't you think that it would be a bad thing to make their (my) life a living hell just for the sake of their (his) own amusement?

Its time he moved on...I did...long ago. His energy would be better spent thinking of things he can do for his kids (our kids) instead of being happy when I am stupid enough to give him emotional control over my disposition! And I need to stop letting him get to me!!
Breathe, relax, and focus....then let it go.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Good day to everyone!!...Happy Valentine's Day! If you are coupled, enjoy each other...let your significant other know how much you care! If you are single...thats okay too! Do something nice for someone...give them a card or some candy. It doesn't have to be someone you know...just someone you thinkcould use that pick-me-up!

In any case...have a great day!

2009...OFF AND RUNNING!

2009...and I can't believe its February already!!

Okay, so I was writing away and realized that I was sounding preachy...hmmmm. So, not wanting to sound that way I hit the delete button and now I'm starting over. What I really want to say is I am hopeful for this new year...and for the future. Simple.

Its been a while since I've written anything. I went back to Maine for Christmas. My kids were with their Father ( in Massachusetts) for the first week of their holiday break...including Christmas day. I spent that time at my Mom's house. My Mother had gone into the woods (before I got there) in back of her house and cut down a tree. It was tall and a bit "Charlie Brownish" but after she put 800 (yes, 800) colorful lights on it, it glowed in the corner of the living room like a torch! She put on some very sparkly ornaments and a gilded twig star on the top, then left the rest of the decorating to me. I put on some silver stars and a collection of Hallmark ornaments that my children have been collecting all their lives. It truly was one of the most beautiful Christmas trees I have ever seen. See...

My 85 year old Grandmother joined us and, although I missed my kids, we had a great day. A few days after Christmas I picked up my kids and we went back to my Mother's house for the second week of holiday break. The kids had their tree with my Mother and I the first day there and the rest of the week was spent just visiting and relaxing and having a great time! We watched the "ball drop" with some good food and a little sparkling cider...yum!

So, I am back in Canada (the kids too) and things are moving along. Going back to Maine was good for me. I reconnected with a "sister" and gained a renewed perspective of what is good in my life...and what is not. I AM doing what is right for me and for my kids, regardless of what some think. My life, my choices, are up to me and me alone. I've listened to my critics and despite what some of them say, I will continue to do what I think is right for me, the kids and the life I have. I'm not exactly where I want to be...but isn't that the challenge?...isn't that the adventure of living? I think it is.

I'm sure my life will continue to be a roller coaster...with ups and downs but I'm also sure that will continue to not be boring. I am happy for what I have and hopeful for what is to come.